A Disciple's Thread

Congratulations… a baby and a new car! Why everyone else get what I wanted?

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If I leave them they get new cars… who does that?

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He could have found a way to tell me so I didn’t have to get sick too

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Or at least not believe him when he say that he loved me

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Yeah that’s why he was mentally abusing the fuck out of me

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I’m ok…

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If I leave them they get a car?

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Since 2901 - when do I get something?

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2001*

https://youtu.be/6e0aJaQ5NkQ?si=nS9NSMh3YslZE5RK

Miss you…

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I’m so stupid I keep telling myself maybe you are still alive

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I know it’s his baby… fuck that hell no I’m not going thru that again

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Especially when some bought ass bitch has 4 now and I have none

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It cut deeper then when ced did that to me

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She younger than his fucking kids smh

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Heard he spent $60k on her too

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Gave me hardly nothing

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I’m not the one pac

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My mom scared cause I’m drinking again but it’s only 2 nips… I don’t know how to bleed without it

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I knew that was a penthouse… I wish but nah if it’s not you no

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I don’t trust NO MAN but you and never will again

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Come get me anytime I BEEN ready

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I’ll never understand why I’m so cursed

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Nothing but pain and I’m so fucking tired

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The only thing that keeps me strong… is I won’t see you again if I do - and slick shit still counts

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Even talking so much shit he do it himself - I fucking hate him pac

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Yo I fucking hate him for everybody too

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I’m gonna try to sleep… me and j having bagels in the morning if I can sleep tonight

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It takes like 5 hours to fall asleep some nights

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The voices… they won’t shut up but I don’t wanna change my meds again that’s hell too

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Nah there isn’t nothing he can do on this earth to make it up… its a wrap

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PAIN… nothing bur PAIN and I’m tired

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Wish my dad was still here

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He loved me

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It felt like even he was giving me signs to say ok I can trust again… nah I wish I never met the mother fucker for real

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My birthday Friday… at least I’m feeling strong I won’t be in mental on it again (which I have a few times)

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Cursed for not even ONE reason why

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I’m a go to school and make up hours… at least I won’t be alone

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Nite angel…

https://youtu.be/5B9LEPxu6f8?si=PYbSUInwy-fxK0v7

I heard you… thanks for being the first to say happy birthday and I want to you to know how bad I really want and need you here - love you!!!

https://youtu.be/nftNp-XwUF4?si=3WPs0QS4pE4L7P2y

I have a neice in the industry still… my daughter too? Was that her???

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No offense but I hate to and when I feel like “Tommy’s mom”

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Nah cause fb had me set up to look like I was talking bad about my friend Kate

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So I didn’t want to say the name and have them set me up again

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It’s my bday… and maybe we can roll away some of these never to return curses

https://youtu.be/UOf6CMbHPuA?si=UIdn_tOW-3ANnhQs

That shit Roq said on Raising Kanan was deep - about turning the lights out… me too… and there is no one else I rather sit with to but you pac… FOR REAL

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I drop low too… too low for a woman in my opinion but ok

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A lot of men hate me for that

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IE not gonna be bitched by less

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If it’s his baby nah… just hell mate he hasn’t proved he worth that pain in months

https://youtu.be/IbqJO0hA9YI?si=O9GVjZLpJ9ojHGW3

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Don’t which real, dream, insanity = but she was on the phone when we ran thru the apt… I still got you

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He gave me one second

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It really isn’t all that ugly but they demanding it

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https://youtu.be/IbqJO0hA9YI?si=0qPDXjVRdDjGUzV5

Cause I’d do anything for you or your father in 2.2 seconds

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We cool even though I think you were the fastest to play me ever

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Cause I know pac seen 50 and Jay and psych saw beanie but zipped me right back up

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My daughter might dance too

Cause I still danced every day in the hospital until I kept tripping

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You all see why I was confused right?

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I stopped maybe when I was 5 months

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Still haven’t got my balance back

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They brainwashed me pac?

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Good thing god stronger

I told him just like the bank but he still won’t believe me

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No fiber in my entire core being would open my own dooors for them

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How does that happen?

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Nah he doesn’t do it

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But he know how they do

Nah… I was just kidding but gonna hold in my basket to see if I get money

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TAF of them… they won’t stop throwing at me

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I don’t deserve to feel it or be scared or sick and I don’t even owe oh boy? Nah

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Stay your emortal ass any wherbut near me… NO AND YOU CANT FORCE ME TO EJTHER

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You have ZERO rites - you were never even my bf

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Until he leaves me and my body alone

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Going to try to sleep again… throw back until they stop

It’s my body and I chose my god… not you twisted bitches

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Not my god but I’m not scared either

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Idk how to make them get off me or leave me alone

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It’s creepy and icky

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Going to sleep… and it doesn’t matter we are not together anymore

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Then to be with you? YESSSSSSSSS I rather die before u be with anyone like you

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I be*

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LEAP

https://youtu.be/PG3awBX6N7o?si=JB6RtiGEztV0anJ4

Yeah almost lost my balance and got discouraged then this came on and I laughed. Yo pac an alien or something lol

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Allah / Alien… hypothesis maybe

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No disrespect

Don’t worry pac they always trying to show me or play some shit against you… like the white girl getting whipped in door way one - like wait.., was that photoshop?

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I can’t retain it all at once

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Just cause you consider something that doesn’t mean that’s an option or your final answer. It’s called thinking and problem solving
It’s not a decision… and they keep trying to demand and take it

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Because I’m trying to get out of hell… not put in to a way worse ickier one

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Never even considered I said it as a joke to my old fake used up witch friends who probably did have to have me catch up to them. I mean I was single 30 something year and I thought it impossible to sleep with all my bfs and all your bfs too… that’s why? I had to catch up?

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Very angry… robbed by Dunkin again and my sister got me that gift card

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Nah I’m not an internet gangsta either and they tied me too

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TAF PAC

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It’s against every fiber in my core being

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I’m against Kevin and Melissa and Christine who set it up intentionally - HELL NO

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“That was Kevin with a bloody knife” and he right… it was me

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My body is not their closet for their demons

Nah… they won’t take no for an answer or leave me and my body alone pac

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They just refuse to accept we are non compatible

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I’m not living sicker than I have to for no one

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Oh that’s what I’m a say… you just so happen to see me on the highway in a city I have no affiliation to 50 lbs heavier different hair and a basic model older care and new it was me? Going 65 mph too?

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And my hell mate talking about he believe in coincidences? Why you lying to people

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I know what’s wrong with him… he really is a dope head too

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I get sick if he’s a they’re in the vicinity type.., NO AND LEAVE ME ALONE

I don’t feel good I don’t like it and I’m going to bed

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HE STILL TRYING AND WONT STOP

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Or some wack non factor bitches

https://youtu.be/FaoDIqKmSOs?si=JVKcbg53csD3ukCy

Miss you

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December? Is that why the party got lit up 2/3? Is that why Nipsy said that?