hey girl im not dead i was abused in mental instertute and was raped.
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i overdosed and slashed my wrists
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hey girl im not dead i was abused in mental instertute and was raped.
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i overdosed and slashed my wrists
Whoa my man... @frankiemc In mental? Are you even serious right now?
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I was thinking about you too...
Frankie... suicide is highly illegal - HMU any time you need to talk
So you had sexual intercourse with a man again?Quote:
Originally Posted by frankiemc
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Proper suicide is not illegal as it's impossible to persecute a dead guy.Quote:
Originally Posted by A Disciple
I don't encourage it, but I also don't encourage dumb cliches.
Nah I meant you really go to hell type illegal
Saw my boy Meek last night, haven't seen him in years. He kept asking me what was wrong that I'm not telling him everything. I told him I just had a migraine cause I was trying to fight thru the pain... he keeps calling to check up on me. I'm lucky to have some friends that care.
But I don't know what to say... I can't explain or tell him what I'm going thru but he's upset cause I always used to be so happy and hyper. I'm just dying slow inside now.
Quitting drinking is way harder than I thought. I had half a strawberita or what ever they call them so I could take the tylenol he bought me last night.
The physical pain is excruciating... and it's back every night for weeks again like it was last year for months and months. I can't go thru that again and don't know what to do.
They coming in hard... they want me dead. We not going to even touch on the psychological torture on top of it all being forced to kiss my hands and shit. Even last night before the pain start I felt a knife rip down my wrists. Like...
And I'm supposed to trust some stranger in the dark splashing water? I cant... I can't trust anybody or anything in the dark except my family (that they refuse to let me even get to)
Sleeping is so hard and rough I just had to put back on my sheet that was ripped off my bed from 3 different sides... like
Lord... no suicide and I get it ESPECIALLY if this is my punishment for trying prior. But 7 motherfucking years of hell one way or the other every single fucking day and night. Nah... I can't understand that. I really can't understand how you even let them.
I was mad and I was crying and I let go of my wheel screaming at 120mph... my angel put my hands back on the wheel slowly and said I can't trick God - that is still suicide.
I'm just banking on that you can't trick God...
Cause they sure as hell can even trick me and have me questioning my damn self.
@frankiemc my man... suicide is highly illegal! I know they look, read, and laugh but some of us truly understand and get it. You stronger than that... just write it out too.
"If we all write, we are all right" ~ CLA919
Frannie had sex with a guy.
I always was saving my ass for my husband so he could get something that no one else had.... Until I got up with an old friend at 30 something with another friend and started drinking at like 2pm. I blacked out and woke up from the pain of him hitting it. I was so upset I had nothing to give my husband now that I cried. But I blamed myself for drinking too much even though I never black out. In any case... I have a bond with the first person that ever even hit it and took my virginity under a white storm so I am ok now with all that. Oh and it's disgusting and painful and gross so I am ALSO SO GLAD that the person I do end up marrying - has to hate it as much cause I swear never again!
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And the noises I was making - just EVERYTHING about it was so fucking GROSS. I'm traumatized for real!
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Wait... I did black out one time prior when I drank for 3 days straight in like 02.
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And yes... always around the same bitch as that.
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And right on time conveniently...
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They even black me out dead sober now too. Ain't no way in HELL I would EVER pull my panta down anywhere near Ike OR let him take a picture like that either. I deserve to know how and what's going on too.
Eh, we know for sure that a guy had sex with Francis, more specifically.Quote:
Originally Posted by Doctor Steak
He certainly boasted of it enough, and with gusto!Quote:
Originally Posted by Spartacus
My old social worker was named Francis... she died of MS. She was trying to teach me how to be more selfish - I'm still not.
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I'm still too selfless. Therapy 101 for you all... when you're so broken you can do it for someone else better than you can yourself. IDKY either.