I've posted this before, but this is the full version. Not just the first half.
Also, it's long. Real long. If you don't think you can finish reading it, then don't start. But I tried making this one of those "Once I started reading I was hooked" kind of peices. (Which I can do by the way. I'm just that damn good that I can rock/suck at my leisure.)
(Also note, when ~Words are written between these Tilde's~ then that is someone in the background speaking to me. Obviously I plan on making this audio. I'm just "Searching for the Perfect Beat")
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Blood Party
It's only night time when you're shunned from the sun
Like Chuck D said it's easier to forget me than to come get me
Fight for peace, fuck for virginity
Since when is drugs, supremecy and mysoginy the holy trinity
You got a second for your son mother? I'm trying to talk,
It's either that or fight or run, brother, Lets take a walk
I'm so tired of everything, so let me spit it
As we go a little something like this, HIT IT!
Heres a little gangster short in size
A sad clown mask is his only disguise
Built like a twig and easy to snap
I'm just sick of taking all of your crap
I know I was created for better things
Yet sometimes my mind feels like a collision of trains
Burning a covered bridge with the grass seed from the trail
Oregonian my sodomized ass, I'm more likely the son of Ba'al
Son of a pervert, son of a man
I came out in the fetal position never wanting to stand
Because I knew my legs would crumble underneath me
So no one, not even the government, would ever seek me
No one'll want me, no one'll need me
Cut me open and watch me bleed, see? SEE?!?!
Emotional? Yeah, I'm emotional, wouldn't you be?
To find you'd be nothing without a computer and TV
I can get rid of the garbage but I can't get rid of the love
Or my brain, or my heart, or whatever the fuck I'm made of
Can you love me, any body?
Would you kiss me? Would you hug me?
Would you be for me what I would be for you?
Would you do for me anything for you that I would do?
Life is shit, and I am full of life
Stryfe is a bitch, but she's also my wife
So is misery and so is pain
So is everything, so is anything
I got sunshine on a cloudy day
When it's cold outside, I let the fire spray
And burn everything, Just so I could say
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust, paint it gray
I could of painted it black, but thats politically incorrect
Paint it African American, and paint it with respect
But respect only the woman, because I hate the black man
I hate the white man, I hate the yellow man, I hate every man
I hate men impaling women through their torsos
All humans cause pain but men do it more so
Of course I am a man and yeah I'm causing pain
But at least I only do so by picking at your brain
My posse's full of helots, zealots and those in love
Much to my dismay, I'm none of the above
I used to write poetry about things that were untrue
Now all I can write is poetry thats all about you
So what's the difference between now and my old school
I can't tell the difference so I'm just a drop out fool
The government keeps track of me with nanobyte technology
So why the hell do they have their agents follow me?
Is it because they know I could snap at any moment?
Join the post office and go postal and just blow it?
I know I would, because I can't do a damn thing right
How disgusting is my life? Get it outta my sight
Mail me to timbuktu, what the hell? Fuck you!
Keep that stamp away from me and that wrapping paper too!
I wrap like a mummy, which is british for mother
Tight and bandaged and I'm trying to smother
Those I care about... and so they leave me
I tell them I love them, but they don't fucking believe me
Or perhaps they do and that is the problem
'Cause who'd want to be loved by this disgusting goblin
Humans, I cannot trust them or their ethics
Animals, they had my trust but they messed with it
Because too many of the ones I loved had died
But unlike the humans I layed their at night and cried
Or at least I tried to, I wanted to cry so badly
But this isn't the third grade where I would cry out so madly.
This is just a glimpse into my life and into my soul
Being born is being imprisoned and then put on paroll
Because freedom lies in death and sleep is just vacation
And any out of body experience is just an indication
That you don't know what the fucks at the end, aint none of us do
Because Satan fucks with the world, The Gods hates on us too
We're all in this together and yet none of us trust each other
I trust only the goddess, she's my daughter she's my mother
But if she loved me like she says she does
Why doesn't she ever show me any of her love
It's because she's scared of me, like everyone else is
So she belongs to the harem of god, yeah she's one of his
The Goddess is in chains and she doesn't know any better
I want so badly to break the bondage and to be free I'd set her
But she wants to be with him, what the fuck she trying to pull?
Oh I'm sorry, I guess she just likes getting her haired pulled
Well what was I talking about? Oh yeah, I'm talking about me
I'm the most important thing in the world, can you not see?
I'm aware of me being concious, but I'm not aware of yours
But if only it were possible to see into your eyes like open doors
You'd say "Bring me to life" and then I would say "Why bother?"
~So you just walked off and forgot all about her?~
Of course I did. Bring her to life? How? She's already dead
I saw her body impaled by a cock, it was all bloody red
~What was?~ My cock. I told you that already so...
I shit, it was me that impaled her through her torso
Fuck it, wait, I wont' do a trubrownangel finish
Love is love, and I am not going to twist it
Tru... lemme speak to you,
I ever tell you you're my goddess? Yeah, it's true
But you're not my true love, and so I must go on
Perservere and endure and act like the Goddess' perfect son
Pobodys Nerfect ~Awe man that was just stupid~
How can I say anything else when I've been struck by cupid?
I've been in love a thousands times
~Too bad none of those other girls knew it~
I've tried doing raps with a thousands rhymes
~Too bad you fucking messed up and blew it~
I lived a thousands lives and commited just as many crimes
~Highly unlikely, you aint got the guts to do it~
Fuck you man! Fuck it...
~Ahem, dude, don't you mean screw it?~
Sometimes I just want to BREAK FREE!
Yell to the grim reaper come TAKE ME!
I speak to the abyss and ask why did you MAKE ME?!
Aint none of you ethereal beings are gonna SHAKE ME!
You're not gonna shame me, and you'll never tame me
But you can punish me cause everyone points at me and blaims me
My faith in the goddess can only be so strong
I try to praise her in the most beautiful song
But I can't fucking sing and I most for certain can't rap
But rap is just crap without the c, so see? I can crap
~Oh my god... you are just some real stupid shit~
Oh my god, all I really need is companionship
Well you told me you were clowning
And so I held you by your hand
I don't think you can see under my mask my friend
So I don't know if you know who I am
Well I was there and I helped with what you did
But then I had to opened my eyes
You commited that sin, you are not innocent
It's all been a pack of lies ~You're not my friend!~
And I can feel it coming in the air tonight
Holding gently and rocking me tight
It's the darkness that is real, it's the dark that I feel
It's the dark that keeps me hungry as it eats each meal
So throw your hands in the air
And wave 'em like you just don't care
Say you deserve a break today
Work that body work that body
Make sure you don't hurt nobody
If you wanna party say "Paaartaayy!"
~PAARTAAY!~
Say "Party!"
~PARRTAAY!~
I dont' care if your age is ten
Or if you a senior citizen
Just smile wide or grin
And dance again
Dance again, c'mon and dance again
Dance again, dance again,
Dance again, c'mon and dance again.
Your never going back again, now dance again
Crucify yourself again, now dance again
You've been soaking in sin, now dance again.
You're not so innocent, now dance again.
